reinitialize.
entries
tagg
links
profile
pray
reinitializing in process.
trust. subtle, strange, highly illogical. perhaps i cannot comprehend what i do not know.
trust is good. its gives hope. had to lose everything. no more thinking on my feet, no more reasoning, no more independence on myself. a thought blackout.
help is here 4 zion. through others, through me but not by my own ability though. i had none to start with, i remind myself. not even mine. All as wat God has promised.
the next steps await.
week 2. things are changing. cell grp, me, my thoughts. it just seems too 'easy' all of the sudden. perhaps i havent been looking hard enough. perhaps it wasnt supposed to be difficult. i made it difficult and bleak. my lack of faith in the power of an infinite God, putting it instead in the power of a finite mind.
.
havent given up myself, handing myself up to Jesus enough.
thoughts which makes me go dark. foolish neverending rewinding thoughts of darkness.
i try too hard, when actually i dun even have to do so at all. just commit. every bit of me to Him.
.
my heart..it cares. not like how i will care. i nvr bothered to care bout others ever b4.
somehow it was good. cos we are beings of love, either wanting to receive it or give it out.
no one can live a healthy life without love. not even me.
a vaccum is filled and it overflows. i am light..and it is good to care. care bout the world around me.
.
reinitialize.
reinitialize.
reinitialize.